I havent been posting for a while,as I have had some heavy duty thinking to do.Did anyone watch the show "The Audience"?The jist of the show was someone had a life changing or difficult decision to make and could'nt decide what to do.I think 50 (or was it 30?) complete strangers followed this person around,and after a few days,helped this person make a decision.It seemed to work so...thought I could try it here,except you can't follow me around!I would appreciate some feedback though.
Ok abit of background info.I moved to Australia from the UK aged 9(I'm now 51)in 1970 with my parents and siblings.I stayed in Australia for 30 odd years,married an aussie guy and had my kids there.When my marriage failed,my kids were then aged 11yrs and 9yrs.The girls and I discussed our options and after a long time,decided to move to the UK to begin a new life.So we moved here in 1998.I met my now OH(he's a brit)a while later,and he became my kids stepfather(he's a good one too!)The girls aussie Dad has pretty much ignored our girls,which still upsets us to this day.Now my girls are 25 and 23.Both have left home and neither live near us.The youngest left home 4 years ago,and since then,I've become quite lonely and feel isolated.My oldest daughter has two kids and we see them maybe 3 times per year (they live 400 miles away).My OH and I both work full time and we rent a property.
The problem I have is I want to return to Australia to live out the rest of my days.I returned for a holiday late last year,and I felt really happy and myself again.My Mum (who lives in Oz)is 81 and not in the best of health,and I miss her alot.I don't have an aussie passport,I have a Residents Return Visa which entitles me to live in Australia indefinately.Trouble is I recently spoke to Oz immigration and they have told me this visa has to be renewed every 5 years(I've already renewed it twice)they more than likely won't renew it next time unless I have compelling reasons!!!! My daughters on the other hand are aussies and have the passports so they are not on any restrictions.My fear is,is that if I don't return to Oz to live,and my RRV runs out(and I'm not getting any younger either!!!)what if one or both daughters decide at some time in the future they don't want to stay in the UK?What if my visa has expired and I can't return to Oz to live?I will then be here alone!!! My gut feeling is that I should move back to Oz while I am young enough to find work and my visa is current,before my options run out,but everytime I go online to look at flights I have a major guilt trip about leaving the girls.I could move to Oz and both girls might stay here for the rest of their lives.If I return to Oz and stay there for 4 years,I will be entitled to an Oz passport,which might make me feel better.I just don't want to be left with no options.I know if I go,I will miss my daughters and grandchildren.Your thoughts would be greatly appreciated.Thankyou for reading!xx