just weighed myself this morning, as i do every morning, and im just slightly over 60kg, maybe 60.5kg.
and i havent even done any
usually i stop eating completely, just surviving on diet coke, tea/coffe/skinny hot chocolate and the occational piece of fruit or salad to avoid fainting in pubilc and if i eat anything other than that i feel i have to get rid of it. i will also make the point of eating in front of people so they dont hastle me too much about it.
but since i got refered to the phycologist iv really been trying not to be so extream. its hard though, i still have all the thoughts but iv been resisting acting upon them. just now im eating fruit during the day and having proper dinner at night which seems to be working as iv lost weight.
this is the bit i like though, the loosing weight bit
it makes me feel high
its the binging bit thats depressing, which makes me binge more and it just spirals out of control and each day that goes by it gets more and more difficult to brake out of the overeating bit of my endless cycle of batteling with food demons.
anyways now im on the up and things are looking good
Tim Minchin - The Good Book
'If you just close your eyes and block your ears, to the acumulated knowlage of the last 2000 years,
then morally guess what your off the hook, and thank Christ you only have to read one book'