crikey didn't expect such a dazzling response! thanks everyone
yes citizentwiglet, gave up this morning (after a couple of cigs to be on the safe side)

! I tend to do ok with the giving up and less well at the staying given up. I managed a year but that was about 15 yrs ago, best so far this yr was a month and a half.
My downfall is usually feeling vulnerable

, (oh and being in large groups of people I feel really uncomfortable with

)! as my brilliant coping strategy is minor self-harm

I hardly drink anymore and haven't taken any illegal substances for years

, so smoking was my last defence: new strategy = deep breathing
Am happy to share the joys, just give me a shout xx